Monday, April 20, 2020

Chapter 2 ~ Only 76 days into the book, but so far so GOOD!!!



     After being with the same person for 26 years, 
exploring the dating world was not an easy task...  
Being single at 48 yrs old 
is not easy!!!
Meeting a man that is not looking for SEX 
is nearly impossible... 

At our age, SERIOUSLY... 
There's MORE to life than sex, 
I'm sorry but there is! 

A good friend, who is also a young widow, 
told me you have to kiss a lot of frogs 
before finding your prince... 

SO CLICHE
But 100% the truth

Dating was a JOKE!!!! 

Most men in their late 40's 
& early 50's still act like horny teenagers. 

I learned the term, 
"Ghosted" 
very quickly. 
I also learned that 
you cannot trust someone 
to sit in your vehicle for 
10 minutes without being practically raped. 
It has really been an eye opener 
 ...this new world of dating
It wasn't like this back in the early 90's
Things are VERY different
I am VERY Naive... 

     I was frustrated with this new life to say the least... 

and one thing that I've done since 
Jeff passed is
~ I still texted him. 
(His number is no longer active

I texted him on February 2, 2020
I told him that this dating world SUCKS 
and that I am feeling so damn defeated.

And that very afternoon, 
I started chatting with a man named Mike. 
I do feel that Jeff 
had a hand in me meeting 
an amazing person...

We texted 
all day, 
all night, 
everyday until the day 
we met in person

February 9th 
(a full moon)

I was nervous as hell. 
More nervous than the previous dates, 
this one felt... 
...well
DIFFERENT

It felt different from the very beginning. 
I think it was because he is 
 a genuine (divorced) man 
looking for someone to spend his time with... 
And not an asshat looking for sex! 
What a difference 
that can make 
in dating someone! 

We had an amazing First Date!
Enjoyed a great bottle of 
Justin Cabernet Sauvignon
(I was not a Cab person, but it is now my absolute 
FAVORITE wine!!!) 

Mike & I had an instant connection.  
We are both at a point in our lives where neither 
one of us are playing games... 
just looking for a mate to spend time with... 
and it feels amazing!! 
I did't know I was capable of loving again. 
thought 
I was completely broken. 
But I can, and I am LOVING again. 
And my broken pieces are slowly being put back 
together!!!

Only 76 days into the book, 
but so far so GOOD!!!